Self-Reflection Sundays: Back on Duty

If you're an educator or live with one, you know that it's that time of year again! This is the very first time in 7 years that I am not employed by a school system. I will not be starting this school year working in any capacity. I have officially been a stay-at-home mom for 8 months and I feel like I still haven't found my rhythm yet. But things have been wonderful because I haven't been alone. Due to COVIC-19, my husband has been home since March, and while he still had to work, having him here to help out, and sometimes just having his presence, has been so supportive. However, my husband is going back to work tomorrow!

Under normal circumstances, I would just be sad because my husband would no longer be with me in the house all day. But during this pandemic, there are added reasons for my sadness. My husband is physically going to be in the school building working. My response, I hate it! Yes I hate that he is no longer going to be home with me and the boys: it's going to be just me on mommy duty all day until he gets home. I'll solely take care of all the feedings, cleaning, diaper changing, soothing, teaching, etc. I will be working with a schedule to try my best and keep my sanity. I am a little worried about being overwhelmed and emotional, but I know I'll be fine.

But furthermore, my concern is that I hate that although we've taken every neurotic precaution to be safe during this time, my husband is expected to go back to the building in spite of all the known factors that should have been a red flag that it's too risky. But I've realized that although my aversion to the plan for teachers is valid, I have a responsibility to trust God and not worry. We are continuing as a family to make wise decisions in order to stay safe, but I also have to trust that God is going to keep us no matter what. I can't lose it. I will wake up and pray over my husband and his coworkers, I will pray that before they allow students to come back, they reassess and that God touches people's hearts to make the best decision not only for the students and their families, but also best for the safety of educators. I will trust that they will actually put procedures into place to keep people safe. It's going to be okay. I think they made a poor decision in deciding to not stay virtual but my God is greater and He's in control. 

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