Self-Reflection Sundays: In God We Trust

I don't know what your relationship is with God but He is so many things to me. One major consistent reminder is that He's Jehovah Jireh (which means "the Lord will provide").  

This past week has been mind-blowing. For a little bit of context, we have been a one-income family since December 2019. To say the very least, things got very tight financially. This was not a new adventure for me, and I knew from experience that God would provide and take care of us, however there was a lot more worry lately because it wasn't just me that He needed to provide for this time; it was a whole family of 4 (and two pets). 

 I'm usually a very easygoing, nonchalent, go-with-the-flow kind of person. I don't think a lot before I make choices, I just trust that things will work out. I've moved away from home for a career with no thought-out plan about where I was going to live or how I would take care of myself. But God worked it out perfectly. I left a job later with no back-up plan, and God worked it out perfectly. I left another job years later. I remember sitting with one of my old students the year I was planning to leave. She asked me if I knew what I was going to do afterwards and I responded, "no". She talked about how she admired my faith and how unworried I seemed. Even though I didn't know what was going happen, I knew God would take care of me, and He opened a random door right on time. 

 I'm used to God working things out for me, even at the last possible second. So why did this time feel so different? I wanted to react like I usually do, just relax and live like normal, and wait for it all to work out. I didn't want to feel the pressure of things looking hopeless. I didn't want to feel the discomfort of questions that I couldn't answer because I had no clue how things would work out. Even though way in the back of my head I knew it would work out, I had a lot of concern and doubt creeping up. On top of it all, it seemed like everything that could go wrong was going wrong. Bills were piling, my car broke down, we had problems with our washer and dryer, our shed fell over, etc. But can I tell you that no less than before, God is working things out! What I started to practice doing was praising God instead of complaining, instead of getting jealous of everyone else's come ups. When I wanted to feel bad, get mad or jealous, I just started saying, "God is so good". 

How could I doubt him? I'm his daughter. My family has been getting unexpected blessings, and each and every time we start to wonder how something will work out, it works out! This week alone has been filled with blessings from our church family! I'm learning yet again that even if things don't work out the exact way that we'd like or expect all the time, it works out for us nonetheless!

It won't always feel comfortable, you won't always know the details, but keep faith that God's got you. He will take care of  everything concerning you.