Self-Reflection Sundays: Enough Hours in a Day?

 Apparently, this past week encompassed National Rainbow Baby Day!🌈

So often I think about the child my husband and I lost, especially now that we've just had our second baby. Even though I miss the child and I still feel sad sometimes, I can't help but praise God through it because there was a reason we weren't supposed to carry the child to term. Who knows what the reason was but I know God is in control and even if the only purpose was so that I learn to lean on God through the bad times, there was a purpose. I am learning to praise God through everything. Like for real. Do you ever think about life and the fact that we are all here for a purpose? If no one ever told you, let me tell you that God has purpose for you, and that is to bring Him glory! In good times and bad times, we are to bring God glory.

If this time at home during the pandemic has taught me anything, it's that bringing glory to God means that my character matters! ALL THE TIME! It matters! In a world where everybody is expressing their opinion on everything, everybody is debating everything everyone has to say on anything. People are being petty, hateful, and hurtful for the sake of laughter. People are getting mad easily, not being gracious or loving. Even in the pandemic, my husband and I were talking to some friends recently about how much it has become who's doing too much vs. who's not doing enough. Everything is tic for tac, I'm right and you're wrong. It's hard for good character to shine through that. It's hard to remain focused on having integrity, but it still matters. It may not look like it but love still wins. 

Even further than just being a morally good person, I have to be Christ-like. The only way to be Christ-like is to know Christ. He has to be in my heart. I have to be in His word. Oh, and the other thing that I've learned during this time, this week more specifically, is that even with the new adventure of being a mother of two, I still have time to spend in God's word. My aha moment this week was that I am poor in time management. It's been this way for quite some time actually. But just as quickly as I became aware of this fact, I also needed to intentionally do something about it. I've decided that similar to budgeting my money so that at the end of the month I won't be wondering where the whole income went, I need to do more that just have to-do lists that roll over from day to day. I needed more than written goals and vision boards. A schedule is a tangible way for me to budget my time and see specifically what activities it's going to. I vow to actively take the next steps from what I've been "meaning to do in my relationship with Christ"  to actually setting the time to do it. If I struggle with reading the Bible and praying daily, then I won't just write down that I need to pray today. I will schedule the time to do it. As a mom, a schedule will help me to plan out my time for all the daily activities that I complain that I don't have enough time to complete. No excuses! Likewise, as a child of God, scheduled time with him will help me to grow closer to him. I'll love beyond the surface and really treat his people with unconditional love. No excuses!