Self-Reflection Sundays: Screams from the Shower

We are in a pandemic...It's clearly, the perfect time for a nice getaway!

I'm kidding. STAY HOME!!

Listen, some of you might be like me where you are completely enjoying this time to not have to go so much. There's a blessing in the fact that my husband hasn't had to leave to go to work, or stay late to finish work or attend meetings. We haven't had to send our child to daycare. Our weekends are completely free. My family has just been home loving each other and spending time with just us! I love it. Time together has been rejuvenating.

Of course this means that "me-time" has been very limited. There's always something to be done; not just as a wife and mom, but as a person in general. Cooking, clean-up, catching up with family or friends, work. Something always needs your attention.

Which warrants the perfect time for a getaway...

The shower! This place is my getaway. Crystal, are you saying that you actually hideout in your bathroom sometimes? ABSOLUTELY! I mean you may be fortunate to have a monthly getaway where you can take a vacation or stay in a hotel but some of us have to use what we have...I have a shower!

Just taking a shower in general can be so refreshing. I can relax my mind and be at ease, not bothered by anything. I can sing and worship. I listen to podcasts. Sometimes, I don't think at all, I just am.  I have escaped. Escaped to a place where it's just me! Me and God. When I come out, I feel so fresh and so clean.

But sometimes the shower is a place where my release involves a scream! A cry, I mean like a sob! Weeping! I might find myself rolling my eyes, having conversations, pulling out the arguments that I didn't use in real life. Rethinking things that happened, thinking about things that I have to do. It's a place where I encounter my thoughts and deal with them without explanation to anyone. It's somewhat therapeutic and I'm grateful.

I think it's necessary to have a place for a moment to yourself to think, reflect, reset, or just be. Even if it's just 5 minutes. For me, the shower works because I'm there by myself anyway (most of the time, I am married haha). But for you, it could be a garden, a meditation room, whatever you have. It could just be that you wake up in the middle of the night when everyone else in the house is asleep, and go to another room by yourself. Sometimes, it's just sitting in the car a little longer when you've arrived home right before getting out to walk inside the house.

Take some time for you! Take some time to let out a big scream or cry. It doesn't have to be a reaction to something bad that happened. It's just another healthy way to release. Find your place to have alone time.

So next time my husband realizes he's been with our toddler for a long time and something (someone) seems missing, she may just be taking an extra-long break in the shower.