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What an exhausting week trying to deal with the affects of hate against Black people! Just like others, I took a Facebook break for a few days. It was too much from all sides! But here's my reflection and that's it! To the Issue of Silence I've watched people call out their friends list, famous Christian artists, pastors, and the like. Many have spoken on how loud the silence is. And I get it, but what does this really mean? In my mind, some people unfortunately are not touched, don't even know what's going on, or don't understand how big it really is. Some get it but don't know how to respond. I don't understand calling them out because they didn't respond in a way that was satisfactory to you. What is it that we're even looking for? A post on social media? What does that really contribute? I mean, when I see someone who says something to me or on social media, I think "okay, thank you. You're trying to care". But did it do a...

I don't really want to write to be all negative and stir up trouble. Trouble is already stirred and I'm simply sharing my thoughts. Sundays are the days that I've set aside to write a new post about my self-reflections. I tried, but couldn't wait until Sunday. This past Sunday during our online church experience, conversations were shared about our world today regarding race and equality. As I was watching, I had a few tears in my eyes. I constantly have thoughts on how people view me or my husband because we're Black. But Sunday I looked at my son and thought, he's just a kid, subject to racism, prejudgment, and bigotry without even knowing. And as he grows older, his father and I want to protect him but the truth is, we won't always be around and who knows what injustice he may face. We pray over him and our unborn son daily. Sometimes multiple times a day. There's an awareness that the world we live in is evil and unfair, unfortunately it seem...

We are in a pandemic...It's clearly, the perfect time for a nice getaway! I'm kidding. STAY HOME!! Listen, some of you might be like me where you are completely enjoying this time to not have to go so much. There's a blessing in the fact that my husband hasn't had to leave to go to work, or stay late to finish work or attend meetings. We haven't had to send our child to daycare. Our weekends are completely free. My family has just been home loving each other and spending time with just us! I love it. Time together has been rejuvenating. Of course this means that "me-time" has been very limited. There's always something to be done; not just as a wife and mom, but as a person in general. Cooking, clean-up, catching up with family or friends, work. Something always needs your attention. Which warrants the perfect time for a getaway... The shower! This place is my getaway. Crystal, are you saying that you actually hideout in your bathroom some...

These last few months have had me thinking about where I am in life. I'm good at a lot of things but I wonder what is that thing that makes me great? I'm one to have the most ideas in the world. But I'm often terrible at follow through. Then I internalize and feel like people look at me as a quitter. In college, I started in one major. I failed so I switched. I came back. Then I failed again so I switched again. Later in life, I had a career. I quit. I took a break and went back to it. Then I quit again. I've started a lot of things and left when it got hard. I feel people either don't expect much from me, or they expect big things and get let down, or the things that I'm really great at don't get recognized. People don't look at me and see Leader.  I don't get picked. Well, I'm the one that might get picked to kind of help out. But I don't always fall through with plans. While this isn't always the case, I feel like this has been ...

HBO's series Insecure is one of my favorite shows. It's one that I have gone back and binged from the beginning multiple times. We are a few episodes into season four and I don't know how y'all are feeling but my heart is tugged on every single week. It's dealing with various topics but the one that's hitting me the most is the intricacies of friendship. I get chills every week being reminded of some of my own thoughts that I've been having lately in life. It's not exactly the same but there are many similarities. It's so familiar seeing them deal with the changes that are happening and watching them handle it differently. I am loving this season and excitedly wait each Sunday night for the next episode. There are so many thoughts that I decided to just write a blog post... So let's talk about Molly.  I've had my issues with her in prior seasons. While the two characters are genuinely friends, I feel like Molly is the one who seeme...