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I've been wanting to make some healthy changes for a while now. But lately, I've been feeling the need to make a specific change much sooner than later. It's a very difficult decision so I shared with my line sisters for accountability purposes. I was confident and excited about my decision that I was going to make by Easter Sunday. Then boom! YESTERDAY Every thought yesterday made me wanna go back to the old me. I was getting ready to give up on my whole goal; I kept telling myself that I wouldn't succeed in it so I might as well stay where I am. YESTERDAY I had a moment where I walked past the mirror and said to myself, “You don’t like beautiful”.  When I went into the living, my husband said to me, “You look beautiful? I knew God was telling me that this wasn’t me! This this was my fork in the road. Was I going to choose to really go all in with Christ and be who He wants me to be, or give up and choose hell? NO SERIOUSLY! This is where I was. Was I going to stick wi...

Saturday, March 29, 2025 Today was a lot. My back has been hurting so bad, I have so many thoughts but we’re taught to just keep rolling. Go through it. But let the record show that I’m tired. But, I’m reading this book Black Minds Matter: Realizing the Brilliance, Dignity, and Morality of Black Males in Education by J. Luke Wood, Ph.D. The seven chapters are ordered so strategically that they start with titles that identify the problem/injustice; very negative. Yet, as soon as “Black Morality” appears, the chapter titles switch to more positive, uplifting titles. This act in and of itself is symbolism - as it demonstrates the importance of morality- whereas, an acceptance of the tremendous effects of racism on Black folks in the past, present, and future (in individuals as well as systems/organizations) has to be acknowledged as fact and as morally wrong before longevity of true change can increase with fidelity. I’m literally trying to attack everything that’s coming against my p...

The long awaited break was finally here. I made it to the most wonderful time of the year where the only thing on my lesson plan is guilt-free breathing, fun, relaxation and spending time with my family. This Christmas also came with a surprise. One of my presents came as soon as the break started. Friday, December 20, the last day of school for the year, I got some new luggage to carry - Perfect timing for traveling through the holiday season. I began enthusiastically making plans and envisioning the future and I couldn’t wait to share news of the luggage I was carrying with my husband. The next day, one of my line sisters noticed my new luggage and I giggled with joy. I still only shared it with two other people who are also carrying new luggage. Then boom, throughout my holiday travels, I lost my luggage. I had not planned on losing my luggage just a week after finding out about it to begin with. I planned to go back to work next Monday and everyone would eventually know why Mrs. Ha...

 Okay so if you're reading this it's probably because you subscribed to my blog because I'm on a social media break so for that I say THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! It's summertime baby! Summer is my time to rest and rejuvenate, and to take care of all the things that I couldn't get to during the school year. This is my first summer not working in a few years. I was actually scheduled to teach for a summer program, but I had to pivot last-minute, and I promise, it was so worth it. This was the break that I've been so desperately longing for. This is my time to get my life together; mentally and physically. So let me share one of my biggest goals with you. My 39th birthday will be here in just a couple of months. I've decided to get my health under control. I am currently at my heaviest weight of 228 pounds. Nearing the end of this past school year was draining. I can't count how many people have asked me if I was pregnant. (I actually was pregnant in Jun...

This is the story of Baby "Quad", the latest member of our chocolate baby squad!  Someone once said, "Life is like a box of chocolates..." I'm starting to wonder if I even like chocolate anymore. Okay I do, but this...this must be the one with the cherry flavor inside. I absolutely hate those kinds. This is like receiving an unexpected box of candy, face lighting up with so much joy, only to bite down and taste nothing but bitterness, confusion, disappointment and misery.  "...You never know what you're gonna get". My trauma response was to approach each pregnancy with caution: If I can just make it to that first appointment, If I can just see the first sonogram, keep you alive long enough to hear the first heartbeat, I'll be safe, I'll know that you have a chance ...and this cycle continues through every single appointment until hopefully I get close enough to the end to feel confident that you'll be carried to full term.  No part of o...

Today I watched the pilot episode of "The Wonder Years". Growing up, my family and I watched the original show which aired in the late 80s to early 90s, and I even watched reruns later in life so I was interested in seeing how it would be. While watching, my mind started twitching, reminiscing about the details that made the original a good show. It was about current events, family, friends, school, a boy in love with a girl, sibling rivalry, so many other situations that you typically see in any American household. Yet, for some reason, I couldn't help but wonder if remaking the show from the vantage point of a Black character would suddenly change the essence of the show from a situational comedy to just a "Black" situational comedy. When a White family was the cast, all of us could enjoy it. So I wonder, do certain events of the time that the show was set suddenly become unrelatable if they are told from a Black cast's perspective? Do some experiences aff...