Self-Reflection Sundays: You Are Enough

I hate talking. 

I know that might sound weird from someone who was a school teacher, but I absolutely hate the energy that it takes sometimes. Small talk, needing to make a phone call, answering questions, all things that give me anxiety. It's out of fear; fear of not being heard (like actually not talking loud enough to be heard), being misunderstood (misinterpreted), being ignored, and one of the biggest fears is not being validated! Why bother sharing if my thoughts are overlooked?  I'm not thinking in a "know-it-all" kind of way, but in a "this always happens to me, Charlie Brownish" kind of way.

Here's how it goes in my head: I understand the matter, I've had ample time to think about it and come up with my viable thoughts on the matter, and you mean to tell me that after mustering up enough energy to actually say what's on my mind out loud, you're not even going to accept what I said? Yeah, I'ma just head out for the rest of the conversation. 

But I have grown in my confidence and i know now that my voice matters. Recently, I've taken more opportunities to not let that fear stifle my contribution. I asked my husband what I should talk about this week and he said to write, "You are enough. That's it. Just that. Because sometimes people just need that reminder with nothing else". I immediately remembered an email that I got from one of my sisters this week that said "You are good enough". Well geesh, Lord if no one else hears you, I sure do.

Years of feeling like my thoughts, my words, my being doesn't matter; it's time to throw that in the trash. From the closest to the furthest person that ever made me feel that way, I reject it. 

I am Enough. Because God made me enough. I move in this, believing it for myself, not needing to beg anyone else to see me. I see me! And that is enough!

You Are Enough