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Self-Reflection Sundays: Thanksgiving

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Gobble Gobble! This past week we celebrated a holiday which, like many others, is known for getting together with family and friends to eat, watch sports, eat, play games, and eat some more. Thanksgiving looked a little different this year for many of us. Some had to face the day knowing that their loved ones are no longer with them. Some were working and couldn't really see family and friends. Some are still missing their kidnapped family members. Others couldn't see family and friends because they wanted to take precautions due to Covid. There is so much happening and so I think we all can agree that there were many reasons to NOT   be grateful this Thanksgiving. This season is a time to think about your blessings, yet of course, sometimes in life there are situations that tend to overshadow the holidays.  So here I am, with an amazing life, but it can feel pretty unamazing sometimes, with the busyness of raising a toddler and infant, sadness from missing my friends and...

Self-Reflection Sundays: One Step at a Time

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Another week has passed and to sum it up, it was hectic to say the least (emotionally mostly). Along with all the regular tasks that to be seem never-ending, I also had the mental battle of feeling like a failure because I can't keep up with everything that I had planned. Lately I've been feeding off of the thought that if it doesn't all  work, then I can't accept just some  of it working. It just seems like if I can find time to do some , I should be able to find time to do all . A few of my goals are to read the Bible and pray daily, workout 5 days a week, keep up with my weekly cleaning schedule, write daily, and do daily activities with my toddler. There is so much more on the list but consistency with just these items alone have seemed impossible. I've been a stay-at-home mom since December 2019 and you would think that this list was just the bare minimum of what I should naturally be doing. But the truth is that things have been challenging and instead of reas...

Self-Reflection Sundays: Imperfect Song Snippet

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I was singing this song earlier this week and I recorded myself playing the guitar and singing it. That's it! That's all. I didn't post it on social media. I just recorded it and let it sit on my phone. Oh wait, later I deleted it.  Friday I decided to record myself again. And I hated it; absolutely hated how I sounded. I imagined it so differently in my head, wanted it to sound stronger, possess more color, yet it didn't manifest that way. Later that same day, I thought about two specific singers whom I like listening to - Jonathan McReynolds and Chandler Moore. They have two completely different sounds in their voices, but I like both of them. The differences don't make either one of them inadequate singers. The differences aren't flaws, neither are they facts that cause one to be better than the other. As a matter of fact, the distinctions only matter when comparing each to one another.  For myself, I have things that I don't like about my voice. I've...

Self Reflection Sundays: Just wear the mask!

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I went into Food Lion this week and a woman was with her daughter walking in as I was coming out. Her daughter had on a mask but she did not. I paused and kind of looked at her with a confused look. When she got to the doorway, she realized she didn't have her mask on so she walked to the side of the building and reached in her purse to retrieve it. Another time, there was a young man I knew in front of me at the register. He didn't have a mask on at all. I gave him a second look and just kept my distance. This is part of our "new normal". Don't forget your keys, wallet, cell phone, mask! When a mask is forgotten, or when it's not quite covering you the way it's supposed to, you might just get a funny look from others around you. We've been mandated to wear masks, we've been instructed on how to wear it. We've been informed on what types are the most effective. However, with all of this comes a variety of interpretation .  What was said? "...

Self-Reflection Sundays: Stay Tuned

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One day earlier this week, I was in my bedroom putting clothes away. My husband was in the dining room doing some work. I was listening to an audiobook on my phone but I intentionally made sure the volume was low just in case he called back to me. If there was a "hey baby", I wanted to respond to it, making him confident that I was available to hear what he wanted to tell me. The action of turning down my phone's volume was based on  relationship . I can make certain decisions because of details that I know about my husband! Some people have an alternate thinking process: Don't yell to me if I'm in another room. Wait until I come back . And if people know that about them, they will follow suit and wait. My husband and I have a relationship where I know that while I'm in another room, he has a tendency to call to me and tell me stories, ask me questions, or ask me to bring something to him when I come out. Since I know this about him, I made arrangements to be ...