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Reflecting and realizing that showing love to family and friends is hard far away. Eventually, you miss having the opportunity to see people in person. Well that's kind of hard right now...or is it? Does anybody else feel like Covid has mysteriously vanished? (I know it really didn't. People are still very much getting infected). It just seems like a lot of the world is back to the way things were and I wonder if I missed the memo. My family and I have been home except for a few trips for necessities. We have a 2 year old and I am 35 weeks pregnant and we've done our best to take every precaution to make sure we are safe, yet somehow I feel like people are looking at us like we're neurotic psychopaths who are just trying to keep everybody out. People probably aren't really  looking at us this way, but it just seems like everything has gone back to normal everywhere except in my house and I feel weird about it. Sometimes I wonder if I'm alone. It hurts, li...

This week I could honestly feel my blood boiling. I felt hate in my heart. On top of grieving the loss of two people I've known, I also grieved because of so much ignorance being posted by those claiming to not be racists. I've developed anger towards specific individuals. Black people are literally SCREAMING for our lives. The fact that some people still don't understand is mind-boggling. I am tired of trying to figure out why some people see the anger, sadness, hopelessness we're experiencing and would rather respond with hate and ignorance instead of sympathy and understanding. They'd rather reprimand us because they are uncomfortable instead of acknowledging the underlying issue. Fighting against people is exhausting. Seeing people in my own community mocking, belittling our struggles has been upsetting. Bigger than one event, we are against systems that see us as less than human; see us as inferior, not worthy of being treated with decency and justice, not wo...

How are you doing? My husband and I have been asked this question very often lately. Today we had a real conversation and I found it interesting being two Black people with two different experiences, processing recent events two different ways being that we grew up in very different parts of Maryland. His answer to how he's doing includes being okay, sad, just living, being kind of numb; this is nothing new. One thing that stuck out to me in the conversation was him saying, "isn't this life?". See, he's experienced living in an environment where the majority of the people around were white. To him, white people always had the upper hand. He's experienced being the only Black student in class. Most of the Black kids were looked at as not good enough. If they were smart, they were "acting white". Not much was expected from them. Success was like a miracle. You had to work three times as hard just to be looked at as half worthy. He learned a lot ab...