Getting Pregnant

FIRST COMES LOVE...

THEN COMES MARRIAGE...









  then comes negative test result after negative test result




THE BEGINNING
I'm very open about my testimony of becoming free from promiscuity. That being said, I have had numerous opportunities to have pregnancy scares, yet somehow I never had one. NOT ONE!

I always wanted to have children - 5 to be exact. At a young age, I wanted to have a baby. Thank God I never did by any of the people who could have been the father. Which leads to my first red-flag.

BEYOND GRACE
I had gotten used to the thought that maybe I had never gotten pregnant because God's grace was covering me. People would say, "it will happen in God's time. Don't worry". "Shoot, be glad you didn't have a baby by him". "When you stop focusing on it, it will happen".

I hear you! I guess this was right! God was keeping me from disaster. However, I still wondered how logically I had never ever gotten pregnant. Like NEVER! This wonder lead to worry. What if I never get pregnant? There's something wrong! Not that I was ungrateful for God blocking those pregnancies that could have been, but was there something else going on???

PCOS
One random day with my husband, there was a commercial on tv about polycystic ovarian syndrome. I was like "oh yeah, I have that". Remembering this took me through another round of worries. This particular syndrome is one that makes it harder to get pregnant so I thought for sure it would never happen for me. I've always loved children, they would always come up to me. And being a teacher allowed me to connect with many youth. So I figured this was God's way of saying that I may not mother children physically but I would still be able to love many children, just not my own.

CHECKING OUT
I was discouraged.Time was going by and the thought often crossed my mind that I could not be a mommy. Then there was a glimpse of hope. When I was engaged, I thought, here's my chance to do it right. Maybe all of this really was just God's grace. All those times I wanted to have a baby, I wasn't even married. Life would have been even more strenuous than it already was. So maybe this is my opportunity to really do it the "right" way. So I made an appointment with my doctor for the sole purpose of making sure that everything was okay. When I went to this appointment, all the doctor did was talk to me about timing and a bunch of foolishness that made me think "Lady, I'm way past all this. I need you to go inside and make sure I'm good". But we took her advice anyway and started keeping track of everything to show that we'd been actively trying for a year.

(as you can see, i didn't do a good job of staying on top of filling in consistently)

After trying, I made another appointment, only to receive the same speech about timing and that's when I knew that she wasn't going to help me.

THE SWITCH
My doctor never even mentioned the fact that my PCOS could have something to do with my infertility. She made me feel crazy for thinking that something was wrong. I've had plenty of practice, with no scares ever. You can't tell me it's because the timing was off every single time. Even if that was the case, I still want to make sure everything was okay. My husband and I had been "actively trying" as my doctor put it; with ovulation kits and so forth, to no avail. Finally I decided to get a new doctor. The first thing she did was set me up to get blood work done and to get a test done to make sure my tubes weren't blocked. Well alright, here we go; now we're getting somewhere. Would you believe that when I went to get this procedure done, the doctor said I was completely blocked? He was ready to stop the procedure and say he couldn't do anymore; I would have to go with in vitro fertilization - when finally the dye pushed through and my tubes were opened.

WOW! That's it? That's all it took? So nothing else was wrong? All this time I was blocked up and didn't know. Geesh, thank God I was able to switch doctors and get everything taken care of.

After the procedure, I had some pain but soon I was able to resume my normal "marriage activities".

1 MONTH LATER 
October 27 was a day that I was off from work. I was sitting on the couch in the living room watching tv and I kept thinking, I should go take a pregnancy test. I felt different inside, and food was tasting really nasty all the time. Despite the doubt and fear of another negative result, I decided why not?

So I peed in a paper cup and sat the test on a paper towel on the counter in the kitchen, then went back to watching tv. I waited 5 minutes and then I prayed "God you know I'm scared. I don't want to give in to this thought saying 'you already know it's negative'. I'm asking you to please do this for me". And that was it, I didn't get all overwhelmed, I just sat there. When 5 minutes was up, I went to look at the test.


All the tears came out of me! I just looked at it crying "ARE YOU SERIOUS? IS THIS REAL?

I couldn't believe it was real. And on my day off! I immediately got dressed and went to my husband's job. When I got there, the office administrator said that his class had just went to lunch. Perfect Timing. I went up to his classroom and told him the great news. He was so excited. When he got off, we went to two different stores and bought 2 more tests. Both of them were positive as well!

All in all, God is faithful. When I look back at his blessings, All I can say is GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS (the book about my whole story is coming soon)! God has blessed us and trusted us to be able to become parents and I'm so excited about this journey of life

Timeline
December 20,2014- first date
January 1, 2015- officially boyfriend and girlfriend
October 3, 2015- engaged
July 2, 2016- married
September 28, 2017- procedure for blockage...
October 27, 2017- positive pregnancy test
June 27, 2018- due date for Baby Handy