Dear Fat Girl
I looked in the mirror one day and I thought, "Ugh, I've become a Fat Girl". I looked in the mirror the next day, and the next, until about a month later, I realized that when I look in the mirror, I think to myself, "I'm a fat girl". I don't know why, but sometimes I imagine people leaving my presence to go home conversing with their spouses about how much weight Crystal gained. I imagine people who haven't seen me in years looking at me in shame because I still have "baby weight" or I'm not fit like I used to be. What I think other people are thinking is mere flattery compared to how I started to view myself. Eating made me feel sad. Trying to eat the right things made me feel disappointed and then I would eat what I wanted. This was always followed by more negative self-talk. See, you can't do it. You might as well give up. Even when you start, you can't stick with it. You're a failure. You would think I had enough head...